|
Update
Nov 1, 2011 23:00:10 GMT -5
Post by lilith on Nov 1, 2011 23:00:10 GMT -5
Hey Guys,
Samara here
I wasn't to sure if anyone would read this, but will post it any way. Just in case everyone is curious on whats going on with me, since I am still new and not very active with everyone. But right now as it stands a lot has been going on. Like I believe I told Becca about my mom, having to have a PET scan. Which a PET scan (For those who have no idea what it is) Detects cancer. My mom had cancer for 2 years. Hodgkin's Lymphoma, which is a cancer that can go into any organ, blood and bone. It spread like wild fire within her body, it was in her blood and bone and her Lympnods. Well she has been clear of that cancer for about three or more years.
Which is good, but she was told when she had either a CT scan or MRI I don't remember. It was a scan done because of her back, since she is in a lot of pain with her back. Her back isn't as bad as mine but it's bad, they found a tumor in her intestine, come to find out it's a Carcinoid Tumor. It's a cancer that she was told is indeed active, but not going crazy within her. It's slow growing so she will be around a long time, but it is terminal. Right now she is trying to get a handle on herself because in a way she wanted cancer, because it would explain why she is in such rough shape.
Now with me things are a bit more complicated, I have a birth defect known as Spina Bifida with Tethered Cord. It's a tumor on the tail of my spine, and no it's not cancer. Not that kind of tumor, it's not really a tumor. When I was forming inside my mother some flesh got caught, now nerves run through it. I had a surgery to remove as much as possible, because it was causing me some serious pain. And I was always having accidents with my bladder. So When I was eight I had surgery, unfortunately a lot of bad stuff happened. Like The tumor was the size of a deflated basketball, then I got very sick, had two spinal leaks and another surgery. Was supposed to be in the hospital only 2 weeks. Was in there for 48 days, and almost died.
Before I was discharged the doctors weren't even sure if id be able to walk again, with a year of therapy things got better. But after twenty years my tumor has grown back, and causing some serious back pain. Laying down and Tylenol used to work for the pain, but doesn't any more. Ive been on and off pain pills since January, off More then on (for my own safety) and Ive decided that even thought the surgery maybe longer. And I may end up never walking again, Ive decided that surgery is needed. Pain clinics no longer work for me, the pills I was on stopped working. And the pills screwed up my mind. I was always falling, couldn't drive well and even dropping dishes and glasses, I dropped and broke three dishes which were based down in the family. And ten glasses.
So Friday I am going to my general doctor to get a referral to see my back doctor. The main doctor retired, but the man that did my second surgery is still doing surgery. And I need a MRI so my doctor has something to look at. That's why Ive not been on, the pain can get so bad I think about suicide. But no worries, I don't plan on leaving this world, not yet any way. I have a lot of life left in this bad body. But thought to write this so everyone knew why Ive been so inactive, I just thank you guys for being patient with me.
|
|
|
Update
Nov 1, 2011 23:33:20 GMT -5
Post by Delano Krueger on Nov 1, 2011 23:33:20 GMT -5
*snuggles Samara* ;_; That's so sad! I hope things go well for you and your mother. We will all be here when you can manage to come back.
|
|
|
Update
Nov 1, 2011 23:40:09 GMT -5
Post by maddie on Nov 1, 2011 23:40:09 GMT -5
Samara Here,
Not sure if people know I'm Wes as well, but any way thanks. I am back for now, until something else happens like my surgery.
|
|
|
Update
Nov 1, 2011 23:55:46 GMT -5
Post by hanson on Nov 1, 2011 23:55:46 GMT -5
Aww feel better soon! I hope you and your mom get better soon!
|
|
Dillon
Canon
Power Rangers RPM Human/Robot Hybrid; Power Ranger
You think you really know me?
Posts: 45
|
Update
Nov 2, 2011 11:58:56 GMT -5
Post by Dillon on Nov 2, 2011 11:58:56 GMT -5
Oh jesus hun! Don't worry about us much--just focus on getting better. I hope you get well quick..sorry you have to go through all of that! *hugs* We'll still be here when all is well!
<33 Crystal
|
|